this day started out innocently enough… In fact, it was pretty darn awesome. And, then… I started thinking about pizza. And, pizza turned into burgers and burgers turned into “Well… McDonalds is just down the road and what I wouldn’t give to shove some McNuggets in my mouth. With honey mustard sauce… The skin crunching as I bite into it. And an order of salty fries….”
There is a reason there is a term called food porn, yall!
I had my splurge Saturday after the race and going camping. You bet I ate a couple hot dogs and some BBQ.
But this train needs to keep rolling and there is no time for pit stops that will just throw me back days in my progress. ONE DAY can set you back MONTHS. You push a ball downhill and who knows when it will stop.
Just with any type of struggle I started bargaining with myself. That should be the first red flag.
“I’ll just do it tonight and get back on track tomorrow.”
“I deserve this! I’ve worked hard!”
“Okay maybe not a burger but maybe some pita chips at home…” This actually wouldn’t be bad aside from the fact I’ve cut out eating several hours before bed.
I came home and started to get ready for bed. I got out clothes I’ve worn numerous times before and then I remembered why I don’t eat the cheeseburger or stuff my face with pita chips and hummus at almost 11pm.
I don’t do it because of that girl in the mirror. She’s someone I am still getting to know. She’s someone whose body is completely changing. She’s not perfect but she’s on her way to being pretty darn close. She sees muscles where there didn’t use to be muscles. She sees definition where there was none. That top fits like her comfortable shirt… A little big and snuggly. She is happy. She is tired and worn out but there is something inside that makes her feel beautiful. It’s the fight and the hard work.
That’s why I don’t eat the crap. That’s why right now in this journey I am not giving in. I’m doing it for the girl in the mirror. I want to keep her around permanently. She’s worked her butt off to get this far and she is on a whole new journey to somewhere new.
Don’t. Give. In! Stay focused. YOU CAN DO THIS!!
until next time… xoxo, patty lauren
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